Posted by rarrjay at 2:27 PM
Ken: We shall strike a balance between culture and fun.
Ray: Somehow I believe, Ken, that the balance shall tip in the favor of culture, like a big fat fucking retarded fucking black girl on a see-saw opposite... a dwarf.
Up There
Posted by rarrjay at 11:10 PM
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Tree House Restaurant. So cool.
Nonjudgment
Posted by rarrjay at 2:19 AM
Those who judge are not enlightened.
The way of The Way does not distinguish
and works without division and conflict.
slight lisps are way cute
Posted by rarrjay at 3:47 PM
here's a couple of vids from the first girl... <3 <3 <3
I said I have a couple didn't I? ;P
Kindness
Posted by rarrjay at 12:48 AM
a spirit of unparalleled reciprocity.
Followers will become leaders,
leaders, willing followers,
jointly overcoming hardship
and honoring sacrifice toward mutual goals.
With loving kindness, you will win hearts.
Through compassion, you will gain loyalty
and cooperation.
Bright Day
Posted by rarrjay at 6:02 PM
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It's not even summer time yet, but I'm already looking forward to fall!
If you can name that girl, then I think you and I are destined to be soul mates =P
Rosy
Posted by rarrjay at 2:41 AM
I just think that maybe
I've got a lot of things to figure out
I'm winning
I'm losing
I'm afraid of never choosing
This heart of mine was so beaten down
Before you came around
And my favorite little song by the same artist.
Say Hello - Rosie Thomas
Largest Drawing Ever
Posted by rarrjay at 2:11 AM
Integrity
Posted by rarrjay at 1:08 AM
Stand strongly for what you hold true.
Believe in your true self without compromises.
Trust in the power within yourself and use it.
Act in concert with your dreams and visions.
Cleanse your heart and soul as nature renews itself.
Be honest with yourself and you will be aligned
with what is right,
in harmony with the natural laws of the universe.
Movies
Posted by rarrjay at 4:30 AM
A really good movie is like an art museum that's married to really good book, but the book is having an affair with a concert hall, and somehow the really good book ended up giving birth to something that got it's genes from both the art museum and the concert hall, but then they all end up living happily ever after in a polygamous marriage.
In Search of a Midnight Kiss
A main character that I can relate to very well. Good character development and an all around good movie.
In Bruges
Really good movie. A little on the darker side, but nice scenery and some randomly funny dialog.
Self-Acceptance
Posted by rarrjay at 12:48 AM
Yet accepting oneself is the way to Wisdom.
It may feel powerful to overcome others
Yet disciplining oneself is true strength.
It may be noble to honor others
Yet respecting oneself is deep self-esteem.
Humility
Posted by rarrjay at 11:57 PM
you offer no danger or threat to those around you.
Sincere modesty
invites loyal alignment with others.
Do not boast and glare overtly.
Keep the jade and treasures
subtly reserved within the bosom.
A posture of humble heart and
genuine respect for the wise
will bring blessings from all directions.
Too Many Thoughts
Posted by rarrjay at 5:58 AM
I had come to live a penniless
existence. I had come to...
...write about truth, beauty,
freedom...
...and that which I believed in
above all things: Love.
Always this ridiculous obsession
with love!
Why
Posted by rarrjay at 3:40 AM
Thank you, Phantom, for helping me describe it so beautifully.
Night-time sharpens, heightens each sensation
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination
Silently the senses abandon their defenses
Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendor
Grasp it, sense it - tremulous and tender
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light
and listen to the music of the night
The second thing that's been keeping me wide awake is... unmentionable. For further explanation, please read "no no" =p
Emptiness
Posted by rarrjay at 1:02 AM
In The Way, we diminish.
To be empty we can be full yet
To be full we stay empty.
Abundance is within
Emptiness.
Post
Posted by rarrjay at 12:40 AM
It's not for attention because I'd probably be whoring out my page if that's what I was after. You know, like what most people do on facebook.
Well I suppose I blog now because I've become so detached from everyone. It's kind of on purpose, and kind of just because that's how the cookies have been crumbling. What other actions can I take when everyone around me wants to do what's "cool", and all I want to do is what's right, what's helpful to others, or what's more meaningful. I take pleasure in the smaller things, not the hyped blah-blah-bee-dah.
Departures
Posted by rarrjay at 6:37 AM
Amazing. I was taken back by how this movie was so rich and was able to speak chapters of life through the simplest of scenes. Even the tiniest action was masterfully executed in a way that portrayed great symbolism.
The direction was beautifully done. One of the best directed films I've ever watched.
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I wonder why I have a really good feeling about things to come ^_^
Lights and Sounds
Posted by rarrjay at 3:40 AM
Lover, You Should Have Come Over - Jamie Cullum
Go ahead and push play before you start reading. I'll wait.
K... ready?
This is for sure in my top 3 songs sung by Jamie Cullum.
The two lines bolded below just make me think........ gosh.
Maybe I'm too young to keep good love from going wrong
But tonight you're on my mind so you'll never know
I'm broken down and hungry for your love with no way to feed it
Where are you tonight, you know how much I need it
Too young to hold on and too old to break free and run
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books on shelves projected on to the walls of the Tower of David in Jerusalem's Old City
xkcd
Posted by rarrjay at 4:21 AM
I have never related to anything more than I have to this picture.
and no this doesn't count as a post about my "like life".
Too Young
Posted by rarrjay at 3:03 AM
I remember seeing Sara Gazarek live at Jazz Alley and this song was the one that touched me the most.
It was amazing to see someone perform with such passion and emotion.
I watched with my jaw fully dropped as a few loose tears started to trickle down her cheek.
no no
Posted by rarrjay at 2:55 AM
1) Being sad/lonely/emo etc.
Reason: Positivity is paramount! YYYEEAAAAHHHHHH!
2) My "love life".
Reason: Please refer to #1.
=P
P.S. Love is a word I don't like to throw around casually. It's nice to keep some words pure and meaningful.
Posted by rarrjay at 9:44 PM
I know I have a different outlook on death, and it's only explainable in person, but the most important point is that I have to cherish everything around me even more, with more passion, love, and care.
I've been called heartless because of how I respond to loosing loved ones, but it's because I focus on the life that the person had, and not solely on the event of their death.
Life is beautiful.
Hey Girl
Posted by rarrjay at 8:36 PM
Tell me more was it love at first sight
That’s right this was God giving grace with a face you could praise
Computer Camp Love - Datarock
like a bosssssss
Posted by rarrjay at 4:56 PM
Then I experienced the most painful. shower. ever.
It wasn't that big, but my inner thigh has never experienced such a piercing pain. Not kosher.
That wasn't the worst part of the shower though...
Yeah.
I'm trying to get in shape for the torchlight run and so I decided that it would be a good idea to do a distance run once a week.
This was my first week and I learned that I need new gear.
I ran seven miles around the burke gilman trail in an hour and 10 minutes. Not bad being my first long run in forever, and having both of my shoes digging into the back of my ankles.
That's a true time too, I keeps it real yo. Lying is a no no.
It's a good thing that I run barefoot on the treadmill otherwise my stupid ankles would never heal before next week.
A few things have to happen before I feel totally confident for the event in July. The first is I need to stop running in the bball shoes that I bought for last year's sportsfest. The second is that I need to literally drop 50 pounds. I dont' known how much I weigh right now, but I need to be that minus 50. And the last thing is that I need new cloths to run in so that I don't get ugly tan lines =P
somersault
Posted by rarrjay at 9:21 AM
I try to be like guy she sings about so that one day someone could sing this to me.
You're the prince to my ballerina
You feed other people's parking meters
You encourage the eating of ice cream
You would somersault in sand with me
You talk to loners, you ask how's your week
You give love to all and give love to me
You're obsessed with hiding the sticks and stones
When I feel the unknown
You feel like home, you feel like home
You're the warmth in my summer breeze
You're the ivory to my ebony keys
You would share your last jelly bean
You would somersault in sand with me
You put my feet back on the ground
Did you know you brought me around
You were sweet and you were sound
You saved me
Downhill Cartwheels
Posted by rarrjay at 4:13 AM
I say just be happy with how things are now.
I'm very content with life, but it doesn't mean I can't make it even better.
Here's my list of things to work on...
FILM
I've been writing a lot of my ideas down ever since our first short film and I even bought my own camera, so it's time to start shooting!
Exercise Creativity.
SCHOOL
Yeah. I finally decided to just do accounting stuff so I can hopefully stay with Marriott. It's nice having the option to transfer almost anywhere I want to. It should be helpful for when I find her <3>
MUSIC
<-- (From Naruto. hehe) I gotsta spend more time looking for music online. I've been neglecting my search for good music lately =/ I also have to go to more concerts. So many good shows, but no one to go with because I don't listen to crap.
TRAVEL/EVENTS
I don't even remember the last time I went on a vacation. It's sad, but things shall change.
I'm up for anything now. Big or little, I plan on doing it.
Like going to Cali just for Ryan's going away party. I'll only probably be there for a day and a half, but it's all about actually getting out and doing stuff.
Then it's PI in November. I'll blend right in right?
I'm also trying to do more events in general. Festivals, city events, special gatherings... if something sounds interesting, I'm going to it.
First thing I've found to do is run in the Torchlight run through downtown Seattle in July. I'm really looking forward to that!
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So I don't like to plan TOO much, I just needed to start doing more significant stuff other than filling people's nights with sunshine at work.
Chilly Spring
Posted by rarrjay at 4:40 AM
I'm speaking about what captivates my fickle heart.
I suppose it's not fickle by choice, but my necessity.
It's the only way it survives.
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I've been singing it all winter long...
Now At Last - Feist
I miss connecting with real friends on a truer level. I love everyone, but I cherish very few.